Having huge feelings of self-doubt today. Doubting my competence. Doubting my skills and experience. The gaps in my skillsets seem monumental today, huge chasms that I can’t even see the other side of, let alone leap over. The logical part of my brain knows that the gaps aren’t really that huge — they’re there but they are normal gaps, gaps that can be addressed and dealt with, some quickly, some over years. But the emotional centre of my brain feels small and the gaps seem very, very large, almost insurmountable, to it.
So, my self-assigned lesson for today is to focus on what’s important, what I need to work on today and not worry about what-ifs for tomorrow. Today I need to focus on the two contracts. Once those are in hand, then I can look towards filling the gaps.