It’s not paranoia if they really are out to get you

I’m in a really weird headspace right now. It feels at times as if I’m trapped in a little soundproof bubble, with nothing getting out and nothing getting in.

There are a number of people with whom I usually have frequent, pretty much daily contact. My emails to them over the last several days seem to disappear into the ether, like balloons cast into the air or messages in bottles tossed into the ocean and forgotten. If you’re in a good mental place, you can logically explain those delays and absences and accept the explanations as being quite sensible.

But if you’re already a little bit…off kilter…it begins to feel a little bit like either there’s something wrong with your technology that you just haven’t fathomed (e-mail not working or misfiltering, phone line wonky, etc.) or that people are avoiding you. And when you rule out the first, the second starts to loom that much larger.

Think I’m going a little stir crazy.