It’s not paranoia if they really are out to get you

I’m in a really weird headspace right now. It feels at times as if I’m trapped in a little soundproof bubble, with nothing getting out and nothing getting in.

There are a number of people with whom I usually have frequent, pretty much daily contact. My emails to them over the last several days seem to disappear into the ether, like balloons cast into the air or messages in bottles tossed into the ocean and forgotten. If you’re in a good mental place, you can logically explain those delays and absences and accept the explanations as being quite sensible.

But if you’re already a little bit…off kilter…it begins to feel a little bit like either there’s something wrong with your technology that you just haven’t fathomed (e-mail not working or misfiltering, phone line wonky, etc.) or that people are avoiding you. And when you rule out the first, the second starts to loom that much larger.

Think I’m going a little stir crazy.


6 thoughts on “It’s not paranoia if they really are out to get you

  1. I figured I’d better reply so that you know everything’s okay! The thing about emails is that they’re so easy to forget. You get so many of them every day. If I get one from a friend I usually send back a quck response. BUT if I want to send a longer response, I’ll leave it “for the moment” because I have other things I have to do first. And then I forget about it. Like right now, reading this blog post reminded me that my uncle sent me an email on Monday which I intended to respond to but forgot all about until now. Thanks.

    1. Oh, I know how that is, XUP. I’m guilty of it myself. That’s why I tell people to nag me if they haven’t gotten a reply from me. Like I said, when your head is screwed on straight, you know there are sensible and logical explanations for things. But sense and logic don’t always have a home, and when the people that normally inundate you with near daily emails, IMs, and/or phone calls — all of them — suddenly stop (and you know they’re not dead), you start to wonder.

      Glad I could be a reminder for you. 😉

  2. i can totally relate to this one. i’m even worse at reading into things…further than necessary and in the end assuming that i have done something wrong, they are pissed at me etc rather than assume that maybe the e-mail is a tad shorter than usual perhaps as a result of lack of time or that THEY are not at their finest.

    but all this to say that ‘i hear you loud and clear’.

    1. @raino: Yeah, you have to work hard some days not to read stuff you shouldn’t into things. I hate it when people do it to me (I had a fight with my friend Nik in Toronto about that very thing) so I should know better. Knowing might be half the battle, but it doesn’t stop you from going there.

  3. The other thing is that as soon as the nice weather hits people spend as little time as possible on the computer. Blog readership and writing is way down all of a sudden. Emails dry up. People want to be out prancing in the sun.

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