Have been sick for the last week or so. Not sure what’s going on. Flu? Cold? Allergies gone wild? Insides aren’t happy — don’t know if it is the change of food from takeout to groceries or what. Head is congested and I now have a splitting sinus headache. Alternating between insomnia and narcolepsy again. Thought I’d have been more productive during the holidays, but really accomplished very little that didn’t involve sitting in front of my computer. Which is to say that I accomplished some things, but they weren’t the things I was planning to accomplish. Tu comprends?
I ended up having to trim my finger nails the other day — the cleaning that I did on the 23rd softened the nails so much that they never completely recovered and it was trim them or bite them. Now it’s a fight not to start biting them again. I’m having trouble not biting the skin around them, which is not helping. That’s stress, that is. But a bad way of coping.
Talked to NiK tonight — she was stuck in an intense Vancouver traffic snarl and thought of me. Aw. Unfortunately, her cell phone died in mid-conversation so she probably had to spend the remaining couple of hours with only her stereo for company. Don’t remember what I was in the middle of saying when it cut out — couldn’t have been too important. I miss her. She’s always a bright spot to my day and our conversations are never long enough. I got to bitch commiserate about Scorpios (no, not anyone who might happen to be reading this) in our lives, which was very helpful. LOL
Week Ahead (from Jonathan Cainer): Sometimes, we have to do a lot of thinking. There isn’t much of a chance to take action. It becomes clear that we are stuck and no matter how much effort we make, this is unlikely to alter. After a while, we become resigned to our fate and retreat into our private thoughts. Lately, you have been obliged to put up with a lot of things you don’t like. Not any more. A tide is turning. Prepare to enter a brave new world in which everything really does seem fresh and hopeful, and you really do feel much more courageous. No matter what seems daunting now, resolve to find a way to resolve it… and you will.
Try to step back and see the bigger picture of what happened to you in 2008. Can you already start to see a glimmer of a silver lining on some of the events which – at the time – felt like the end of the world? Of course, there are some losses and incidents which can never be rationalised away. But if you are in a positive frame of mind and you can already sense how you’ve actually benefited from what has happened in your world, then you’re one of the luckiest Taureans. You have already made the most of the chances offered by the heavens over the past year. So? Thank your lucky stars! And if you haven’t? Then use your insight as a springboard into 2009.
Monday, December 29, 2008: Your ability to make progress is, for the time being, inextricably bound up with someone else’s fortunes. It may be a nuisance, but it doesn’t have to be a problem. Rather than resent a seemingly awkward situation, surrender with good grace to the notion that in helping this other person you will be helping yourself. You ought not to have to do this, and you may well be doing the other person no great favour by making their life so easy. But you’ll do no great harm- and you do have a journey into a new year to make.